Always Difficult to Concentrate on My Dreams

I always wanted to be a writer. I dreamed to be a writer and win the Nobel Prize with my fabulous works. I wanted to fulfill all through my writing tasks. But as time goes by and I had to work and earn money for living, my focus keeps moving toward money rather than my true North. In Korea, several stock soars due to COVID-19 kits. Before its severe outbreak, I wanted to cheer the company by buying the stocks because the company put all their efforts to invent the kits for Korea. However, I haven’t invested in stock market … Continue reading Always Difficult to Concentrate on My Dreams

No Ifs Are Considered in Life

I heard about one actress who had a disabled child and ended her life with misery and regret. The narrator kept using a word “what if” which made me frustrated. As the narrator was saying, “what if she didn’t meet her at the conference, her life would be different,” one frustration bothered me. While watching her story, it seemed like she blamed on others and didn’t even take responsibility. Even though her child was disabled, she should love her and took care of her with love and hope because we never know what each child would become when they grow … Continue reading No Ifs Are Considered in Life

Reading a Book Before Work Is the Happiness

Today I went to work earlier than my working hour and read a book as meditation. It was true spring with soft breeze and as it came into my workplace and touched my face and hair, I could totally feel what the happiness is in my life. I always tried to seek for the true happiness in my life by changing my life style and meeting new people; however, while reading a book before work in total silence, I felt calm and reaching who truely I am. We sometimes misunderstand happiness as something big and surprising, therefore we believe if … Continue reading Reading a Book Before Work Is the Happiness

Sleep from 10 to 5 for My Immune System

Recently, my sleeping pattern has been messed up. I had trouble falling asleep in time amd waking up in time. I can feel all my muscles loosened up and my heart beat fast. If not working, I lost all my intension and control. Honstely speaking, I actually watched YouTube videos until 3 in the morning. Because I didn’t have to wake up and work, I forgot managing my minutes and day. In the morning, I learned about immune system through YouTube video, which made me think I should stop this irregular sleeping pattern since it messes with my time and … Continue reading Sleep from 10 to 5 for My Immune System

Cleaning Is the First Action If You Have No Idea Where to Start

I went back to work after two-week vacation. Because of coronavirus spreading over the world, a few students came to the institute and I felt a little lost. Even though I was expected how it would be like, it still made me embarrassed. After wandering around all day, I actually clean my desk and surroundings. As I started the day, actually I listed up all the tasks I should comeplete in this week. However, with comparatively slow pace, I was confused to find out where to start my tasks. I couldn’t even finish one. After cleaning my desk and surroundings, … Continue reading Cleaning Is the First Action If You Have No Idea Where to Start

Having Dinner with My Bestie Is the Best

I took the unexpected, long vacation because of Coronavirus. It was the last day and my bestie came over to my town having dinner together. I once again realized that eating is one of my greatest pleasure and spending time with my bestie is another one. When I was alone, I never thought of spending time with others. I felt so comfortable doing all by myself, but once starting dating, spending time by myself for a long time made me feel awkward. I am so grateful for all and him as well. Good night. Have a sweet dream. God allows … Continue reading Having Dinner with My Bestie Is the Best

Staying Together, Especially Going Through Difficulty

Last night, watching the movie titled “The Pursuit of Happyness” I was determined not to say good-bye if he goes through difficulty. In the movie, even though I agree that if he hadn’t confronted the difficult situations such as his wife leaving, he would and might not get desperate and motivated to catch his chance, the moment when his wife finally left him made me feel so bad. Sometimes in life, we all experiece very depressing events that seem never-ending. When I confront the darkest moment of life, I alwasy desperately wish that one person, not many, but a faithful … Continue reading Staying Together, Especially Going Through Difficulty

Why I Want Money; Not Just Money, But a Huge Amount of Money

It’s Saturday tomorrow, so I watched a movie titled “The Pursuit of Happyness” which Will Smith starred in. It is actually one of my favorite movies, but I barely can watch it because it is really difficult for me to see the main character go through difficulty. However, I loved the moment when Chris Gardner actually caught the opportunity to join the internship though he didn’t even have any special background and was a high-school graduate, unlikely his competitors. Also I can watch the moment when Chris Gardner finally got a job at Dean Witter. It was pretty much overwhelming. … Continue reading Why I Want Money; Not Just Money, But a Huge Amount of Money

Remember Happiness Is Always Near

Sometimes, pressure and uncertainty suffocate me and make me feel unfortunate. After struggling with life, I once more think having my own place to hide from all the difficulties is a blessing. While taking a shower, warm water relaxes all the muscles. I feel blessed that I can feel warm water thoroughly no matter how cold weather is. As I sneaking into the bed, my lovely two cats follow me and snuggle up to me. Their warm and soft fur let me feel loved. I am so grateful that my lovely cats love me with thier innocent hearts. In the … Continue reading Remember Happiness Is Always Near

Time to Say Good-Bye to My O.C.D.

  I am not a person who likes cleaning and makes all things straight. I am more like a person who likes to stay in a mess and believes artists should be able to stand in a mess for stronger creativity. However, when I make a determination on any problems, I feel like I must start all over again after deleting all the past events. It is the most difficult problem I struggle with. In my thirties, I want to get rid of O.C.D. for further steps in my life because I read the same pages over and over without … Continue reading Time to Say Good-Bye to My O.C.D.